I love you all

Day, 24, pick 24, today it doesn’t add up. TMI, broken Links, if you are on “Schnupfen” on Wikipedia, what I suffer from these days––a cold––, and press English to change the language, you get this: “…insufflation and exsufflation are ritual acts of blowing, breathing, hissing, or puffing that signify variously expulsion or renunciation of evil or of the devil (the Evil One), or infilling or blessing with good …” That’s not what I suffer from.
Hardly anything adds up today.
Why am I sorry that the FDP, the Liberals, will not be in parliament anymore? I hate them. But I hate the CDU as well, and the Toten Hosen, and Angela Merkel, and the Green Party anyway. And the new right-wing trash AfD. Horror. I hate Obama for the NSA, for the drones, for Snowdon and Chelsea Manning and for Julian Assange (but I think Assange is super creepy), I hate the al-Shabab militants and all other jihadists, I hate Putin for being Putin and for the Sochi Winter Olympics and for praising Schalke 04 for the Boateng transfer, I hate Schalke and Putin for Gazprom (why Franz Beckenbauer, why?), I hate Putin for Berlusconi and for Pussy Riot and Nadezhda Tolokonnikova (who I adore) and I hate Putin for talking about Greenpeace today and for all his photos and stories. For his singing, his smile and his divorce.
I’m not even in a bad mood, it’s just today. Maybe it has to do with the cold. Or the tinnitus. (It’s louder today) Is that how you feel when you are really old?
Christopher Hitchens the former Trotskyist said: “To be in opposition is not to be a nihilist.” Erich Mielke the former Stalinist and boss of the East German secret police defended himself with the words “I love you all”. Who was Mielke addressing? Me, you? Universal love? Mielke was a monster. A monster in a white uniform.
Thinking of him, I’m in a much better mood. Erich.
    
(Anna-Maria Jung)